Why do I keep pushing away the person I love most 

I feel happy making everyone bitter is it. 

I'm a bitch.

Feeling so miserable as f

I'll always remember the things he did for me 

Traveling from his house to my house every time when he knows I feel sian and wanna see him.

Sending me to work every time. 

Telling me about his day, informing me where he will be going that night or that weekend.

Finding websites for me to watch my shows online.

Best boyfriend on earth. 

I'll never find a boyfriend like him.

But I'm better off alone because I flare up so easily, and after being in this airline, my temper has worsen so much.

I am so temperamental and I'm super unpredictable.

I'm not a good girlfriend, not a good daughter. 

I expect people to please me, but I don't wanna try and make people happy. 

I deserve to grow old and die alone